so carnivale has officially started. mardi gras is in two weeks, i'm going home this weekend...things should look up. i've got friends; i watched porky's 1 and 2 with a stripper in my bed last night. but then i look at splotches and see my friends happy with their "amazing boys." i miss having an amazing girl. i peaked at 16 and 17. wtf?! everything that goes for me down here is a step in the wrong direction, but i have no other options. i feel like a fucking charity case.