the dead man

hello again, to the world i know
so weird to be back in town
old habits are back
my body is shaking
the snow on the table,

slowly it's making
me drown
i'm falling down
losing my life
to a substance so white
please don't hate me
for what i've become

so now who have i become?
i'm not the person i once was
you try to figure out my mind
but the more you seek, the less you find
i'm dead to the world
i have no life
all i long for
is that lovely, pure white

slowly it's making
me drown
i'm falling down
losing my life
to a substance so white
please don't hate me
for what i've become

i'm sorry mom, i'm not your son
i'm not the little boy you once held
i've lost my life to a substance so white
that only god can save me now

slowly it's making
me drown
i'm falling down
losing my life
to a substance so white
please don't hate me
for what i've become

i no longer wish i never tried it
i no longer wish for anything at all
for my world no longer exists to you
when i look up i no longer see blue
all i see is the clouds in the sky
anxious for that next, wonderful high
don't pity me, for i won't know
my world has shrunken into nothing but blow

slowly it's making
me drown
i'm falling down
losing my life
to a substance so white
please don't hate me
for what i've become