i hate women. i'm tired of being scarred by them. if my scars were visible, i'd be more hideous than anyone could take. help me please. i need a savior....
Tuesday, December 12, 2006
Monday, November 20, 2006
Sunday, November 19, 2006
i'm fucking up again and i'm tired of this bullshit. why do i do this to myself? i put myself in impossible positions to not get hurt, and then i'm the one who fucks it all up in the end. sure she went and made out with two other guys at my frat's party, but then i went home with another girl. did i fuck her? no. hell, i didn't even get off. but after i told her i didn't like what she did, i went and did a step worse. i can't fucking do this anymore. life is too much. it's silly college bullshit, and the future is just going to get harder. i'm going to be alone. i need to figure that out. why can't i just come to terms with it?
i want out. this life isn't for me.
Thursday, August 31, 2006
i've loved you since the day we met
i'll love you til the day i die
everytime i tell you how
perfect you are, you ask me why
i tell you the best way
words can say
but they won't tell you how
my heart feels
i'll give you every
cent i make
i'd spend it all for
just one meal
with you tonight
all i want is just one night
to hold you close
to my heart
and pray tonight is
just the start
i pick you up at half past eight
i hope it all will work out great
you're wearing your blue cardigan
god, you look great in anything
i tell you the best way
words can say
but they won't tell you how
my heart feels
i'll give you every
cent i make
i'll spend it all for
just one meal
with you tonight
all i want is just one night
to hold you close
to my heart
and pray tonight is
just the start
dinner's gone, here comes dessert
and you get ice cream on your shirt
you look at me with your deep eyes
and with your smile your beauty shines
i tell you the best way
words can say
but they won't tell you how
my heart feels
i'll give you every
cent i make
i'll spend it all for
just one meal
with you tonight
all i want is just one night
to hold you close
to my heart
and pray tonight is
just the start
and i take you to your door
and i wish for nothing more
than just to hold you close to me
and kiss you softly, melting me
with you tonight
all i want is just one night
to hold you close
to my heart
and pray tonight is
just the start
i've loved you since the day we met
i'll love you til the day i die
everytime i tell you how
perfect you are, you ask me why
Saturday, August 12, 2006
the dead man
hello again, to the world i know
so weird to be back in town
old habits are back
my body is shaking
the snow on the table,
slowly it's making
me drown
i'm falling down
losing my life
to a substance so white
please don't hate me
for what i've become
so now who have i become?
i'm not the person i once was
you try to figure out my mind
but the more you seek, the less you find
i'm dead to the world
i have no life
all i long for
is that lovely, pure white
slowly it's making
me drown
i'm falling down
losing my life
to a substance so white
please don't hate me
for what i've become
i'm sorry mom, i'm not your son
i'm not the little boy you once held
i've lost my life to a substance so white
that only god can save me now
slowly it's making
me drown
i'm falling down
losing my life
to a substance so white
please don't hate me
for what i've become
i no longer wish i never tried it
i no longer wish for anything at all
for my world no longer exists to you
when i look up i no longer see blue
all i see is the clouds in the sky
anxious for that next, wonderful high
don't pity me, for i won't know
my world has shrunken into nothing but blow
slowly it's making
me drown
i'm falling down
losing my life
to a substance so white
please don't hate me
for what i've become
Wednesday, August 02, 2006
left early today
on my way to pick you up
something wasn't quite okay
then our song came on and i had to stop
i pulled in to the lot
and walked into the grocery store
made a right, my eyes lit up
i saw what i thought were perfect for
you...
there were
one dozen roses
sparkling, beautiful roses
pink and white and red i stopped
and realized right then
all i need is one
driving out, across the state line
pull off onto a country drive
through the pastures, over the fields
i kicked it up, into four wheels,
and then i saw them
growing out of the green, green grass
i started to count them out and then you
smiled at me cuz alas
there were
one dozen roses
sparkling, beautiful roses
pink and white and red i stopped
and realized right then
all i need is one
you're the only one i need
when my life gets painful and thorny
you're the only thing i need
to keep me hanging one
there were
one dozen roses
sparkling, beautiful roses
pink and white and red i stopped
and realized right then
all i need is one
all i need is one...
all i need is one...
all i need is one...
and all i need is one...